The Manner In Which I Lost You

Misty, 16, US

A grey sky turned to blue,
Then back to grey and black.
A stormy sea - manifesting fears.
A calm sea following, filled with my tears.
From life to death,
Then death to life,
And now I shall lie cold.
Diamonds to dust,
Then dust to gems,
And now it's gone from gold.
The worst thing about this situation
Is the manner in which I lost you.
I never had you at all.
Sad, beautiful dreams
Were all I had to hold.
Visions of you
Made real by my desire.
Reality was pushed back
By the longing in my soul,
And now the passion's fading
Like a dying fire.
It wouldn't be so bad
If it weren't for
The manner in which I lost you.
I never had you at all.
And even if I did,
Neither of us knew.
Perhaps you couldn't tell me
And I never did tell you.
Maybe my pain
Wouldn't be so intense,
And maybe the pain I think you have
Wouldn't exist at all
If we had just let it all out.
Just let me know
And I'll do the same for you.
The manner in which I lost you
Wasn't a manner at all.
The manner in which I lost you
Wasn't even mine.
The manner in which I lost you
Wasn't, but was.
I never had you at all.